Funeral

I'm singing at a funeral tomorrow

For a kid a year older than me

And I've been talking to his dad, it makes me so sad

When I think too much about it I can't breathe

And I have this dream where I'm screaming underwater

While my friends are waving from the shore

And I don't need you to tell me what that means

I don't believe in that stuff anymore

Jesus Christ, I'm so blue all the time

And that's just how I feel

Always have and I always will

I always have and always will

I have a friend I call

When I've bored myself to tears

And we talk until we think we might just kill ourselves

But then we laugh until it disappears

And last night, I blacked out in my car

And I woke up in my childhood bed

Wishing I was someone else, feeling sorry for myself

When I remembered someone's kid is dead

Jesus Christ, I'm so blue all the time

And that's just how I feel

Always have and I always will

I always have and always will

And it's 4 a.m. again

And I'm doing nothing

Again