FEAR.

(I don't think I can find a way to make it on this earth)

What's up family, yeah it's yo cousin Carl man, just given' you a call man

I know you been havin' a lot on yo mind lately

And I know you feel like ya know people ain't been prayin' for you (yeah)

But you have to understand this man, that we are a cursed people

Deuteronomy 28:28 says

"The Lord shall smite thee with madness, and blindness (yeah)

And astonishment of heart."

See family that's why you feel like

You feel like you got a chip on your shoulder

Until you finally

Why God, why God do I gotta suffer? (-get the memo, you will always feel that way)

Pain in my heart carry burdens full of struggle

Why God, why God do I gotta bleed?

Every stone thrown at you restin' at my feet

Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?

Earth is no more, why don't you burn this mufucka?

(I don't think I can find a way to make it on this earth)

Akcuf’hum siht nrub uoy t'now ,erom on si htraE

Reffus attog I od doG yhw ,doG yhW

Teef ym ta 'nitser uoy ta nworht enots yrevE

Deelb attog I od doG yhw ,doG yhW

Elggurts fo lluf snedrub yrrac traeh ym ni niaP

Reffus attog I od doG yhw ,doG yhW

Teef ym ta 'nitser uoy ta nworht enots yrevE

I beat yo' ass, keep talkin' back

I beat yo' ass, who bought you that?

You stole it, I beat yo' ass if you say that game is broken

I beat yo' ass if you jump on my couch

I beat yo' ass if you walk in this house with tears in your eyes

Runnin' from poopoo and 'prentice

Go back outside, I beat yo' ass, lil-

That homework better be finished, I beat yo' ass

Yo' teachers better not be bitchin' 'bout you in class

That pizza better not be wasted, you eat it all

That TV better not be loud if you got it on

Them Jordans better not get dirty when I just bought 'em

Better not hear 'bout you humpin' on Keisha's daughter

Better not hear you got caught up, I beat yo' ass

You better not run to your father, I beat yo' ass

You know my patience runnin' thin

I got beaucoup payments to make

County building's on my ass

Tryna take my food stamps away

I beat yo' ass if you tell them social workers he live here

I beat yo' ass if I beat yo' ass twice and you still here

Seven years old, think you run this house by yourself?

Nigga, you gon' fear me if you don't fear no one else

If I can smoke fear away, I roll that motherfucker up

And then I take two puffs

Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now (to the side now)

(I don't think I can find a way to make it on this earth)

I'll prolly die anonymous

I'll prolly die with promises

I'll prolly die walkin' back home from the candy house

I'll prolly die because these colors are standin' out

I'll prolly die because I ain't know Demarcus was snitchin'

I'll prolly die at these house parties, fuckin' with bitches

I'll prolly die from witnesses leavin' me false accused

I'll prolly die from thinkin' that me and your hood was cool

Or maybe die from pressin' the line, actin' too extra

Or maybe die because these smokers are more than desperate

I'll prolly die from one of these bats and blue badges

Body slammed on black and white paint, my bones snappin'

Or maybe die from panic or die from bein' too lax

Or die from waitin' on it, die 'cause I'm movin' too fast

I'll prolly die tryna buy weed at the apartments

I'll prolly die tryna diffuse two homies arguin'

I'll prolly die 'cause that's what you do when you're 17

All worries in a hurry, I wish I controlled things

If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that mothafucka up

And then I'd take two puffs

I've been hungry all my life

Life's a bitch, pull them panties to the side now, now (to the side now)

When I was 27, I grew accustomed to more fear

Accumulated 10 times over throughout the years

My newfound life made all of me magnified

How many accolades do I need to block denial?

The shock value of my success put bolts in me

All this money, is God playin' a joke on me?

Is it for the moment and will he see me as Job? (I don't think I can find a way to-)

Take it from me and leave me worse than I was before? (-make it on this earth)

At 27, my biggest fear was losin' it all (yeah)

Scared to spend money, had me sleepin' from hall to hall

Scared to go back to Section 8 with my mama stressin'

30 shows a month and I still won't buy me no Lexus

What is an advisor somebody that's holdin' my checks?

Just to fuck me over and put my finances in debt? (yeah)

I read a case about Rihanna's accountant and wondered

How did the bad girl feel when she looked at them numbers?

The type of shit'll make me flip out and just kill somethin', drill somethin'

Get ill and fill ratchets with a lil' somethin'

I practiced runnin' from fear, guess I had some good luck

At 27 years old, my biggest fear was bein' judged

How they look at me reflect on myself, my family, my city

What they say 'bout me reveal if my reputation would miss me

What they see from me would trickle down generations in time

What they hear from me would make 'em highlight my simplest lines

I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' creativity

I'm talkin' fear, fear of missin' out on you and me

I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' loyalty from pride

'Cause my DNA won't let me involve in the light of God

I'm talkin' fear, fear that my humbleness is gone

I'm talkin' fear, fear that love ain't livin' here no more

I'm talkin' fear, fear that it's wickedness or weakness

Fear, whatever it is, both is distinctive

Fear, what happens on Earth stays on Earth

And I can't take these feelings with me so hopefully they disperse

Within 14 tracks, carried out over wax

Searchin' for resolutions until somebody get back

Fear, what happens on earth stays on earth

And I can't take these feelings with me so hopefully they disperse

Within 14 tracks, carried out over wax

Wonderin' if I'm livin' through fear or livin' through rap

Damn

Goddamn you

Goddamn me

Goddamn us

Goddamn we

Goddamn us all

Verse two says you only have I known of all the families of the earth

Therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities

So until we come back to these commandments

Until you come back to these commandments

We're gonna be in this place, we're gonna be under this curse

Because he said he's gonna punish us

The so-called Blacks, Hispanics, and Native American Indians

Are the true children of Israel

We are the Israelites according to the Bible

The children of Israel, he's gonna punish us for our iniquities

For our disobedience because we chose to follow other gods

That aren't his son, so the Lord thy God chasten you

So just like you'll chasten your own son

He's gonna chasten you because he loves you

So that's why we get chastised, that's why we're in the position we're in

Until we come back to these laws, statutes and commandments

And do what the Lord said, these curses are gonna be upon us

We're gonna be at a lower state in this life that we live here in today

In the United States of America

I love you, son, and I pray for you

God bless you, shalom